was pretty sad yesterday it was not a day for mi T^T .......woke up quite early cos i could not sleep well ...... felt a little better when i thought tt was going out with her ..... but then again she cant go out cos her head pain loving her too much so let her stay at home..... although my heart hurts and very sad but what can i do just to feel moody and not talk to any 1 i guess ..... then i go out alone with heavy legs lolz T.T ...... just listening to my emo de song and feel even worst ..... then l8r even go to eat mac and then go join my frens to play soccer ..... just play a while onli not yet even sweat then injured my leg feel the spraining pain again ....... tt nvm well the worst is not yet to come ......when home skipping dinner cos wana talk to her on my hp ..... went home lao then bath and she called a while then l8r then call back .... when she called back it about near 10.30 le....... onli talk an hour plus on my phone then kena scold lao le was very angry and sad WTF i was using my phone not the house phone why must they care !! ......why are they so boas to mi my bro every time talk so long no 1 seems to care and i onli talked long long one then then get the scolding lao and my f-ing bro was there to add fuel to fire making it worst haiz ........ no choice then i hung up the phone lao what can i do lehs ..... it my phone why do i have no rite to have my owe privacy and i am not a kid any more le ..... why must i be treated so unfairly .... my bro's bill do not need to give himself and every time burst de my father did not say much but mi lehs have to pay mi owe bill and yet got scream at ..... for using my phone my sim card and then money i save to pay for the prepaid card T^T ..... was pretty sad and then think of how my grandma was the onl i1 tt care for mi so far in this world when i was small she always buy for me the things i wanted and love mi a lot and i think of all the thing she did for me why cant my mum be like her just even to treat us fairly ....T^T all the past memories seems to flash back at tt point ..... why did she have to go leaving me here where no 1 love and care for me at all ........miss her so much the care and concern she gave to me..... now she is gone who will love me ??? tears did roll down last nite but i hold back not to cry boys should not cry de ...... T^T ....... even when i am typing of her now a few drops down my eyes i am still trying to hold it back not crying just cant do it ..... just wana cry out loud but cant .....

Just a lonely boy in a lonely world, would you bring me home ?

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