Fu Zhong
Posted at Sunday, October 21, 2007 by Fuzhong 
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Maybe its sometimes my fault too ba.... landing in the state i am now ...... haiz ..... lolz die le lolz my o-lvls practical not enough time to fin lolz all most whole of our class like tt de lolz ......how i wish to go back to the pass to ba cared and love but now it seems tt all has gone ........is it too much to ask for to be with mi when i am sad ??today went to school for maths tuition wanting to see her just a glance to see her maye from a far so when to 3rd floor staff room ther to see her class but nth no 1 was very sad though keep going there to see lolz maybe she went to com lab or what will come back soon but after going there a few time guess i gave up le ba no one then..... i saw her today while going home from school with her frens she was kinda smiling with her frens...guess i didnt have the courage to turn around to look at her frens and her in the eyes ba, if she were alone too i guess i dun have what it takes to look back onli could harden my heart and keep walking not to look back and it hurts.....how i wish i were to run to her and hug her to say i am sry ?? could we srt all over again ? but guess her ans would be a no ba so didnt bother to even try to ask didnt wana get upset or hurt again ....keep ask to myself am i asking too much from her ?? maybe i am ba .....maybe all of this is my fault as she said maybe i am not as caring maybe i am very bored tt is why she rather be with her frens then mi ba ,rather to tell her problems to them then to mi ba.... some times i just felt like i am a umbrella when need then use dun need then keep mi in the store room just as her mood sometimes when her mood is not good i will be pushed away .....maybe i think too must guess i am ba ..... maybe or it must be my fault i am useless can even share her problems with her not even understanding enough ba ...... dono how she feels ba....sometimes just want to ask her what position am i in ur heart ?? maybe i may be too small to be notice my feelings just cant reach her heart ba ........i am just a too small ba .....