i have not much time left le i guess ... but still i dono how to face it haiz life is so far good for me in poly i guess but it seems to be missing the feeling of me be able to see her ... dun even noe how to do what to do sometimes she fills my mind wanted to get rid of the past thoughts but no matter how tried i am just cant seems to fall a sleep though it has been tt long ..... even if i get to slepp finally ... it seems tt she nevers fail to appear even in my mind and just no 1 understand me .... but when i ope my eyes it seem tt what i dream is onli a dream but whats real is really so painful.... why cant reality be like in my dreams..... even so i just wish to fall in a sleep and never wake up at lest tt wount hurt and like nth have ever happen between us at all ..... why cant i get rid of it sometimes it seems i have make it got away the memorise but it always did find a way to creep back in .... i did try hard to forget but seems tt tough i forget it but lying on the bed with my eyes close it becomes crystal clear to me again. truth hurts as the saying goes but didnt noe it would wound me so badly sometimes look at familiar places reminds me of what had happen but what coud i do ? onli could try to surpress it and try to act ok or a lest my supressing works but it seems to hurts more when i surpress it ...... people used to say time will heal but it seems that time have got it engraved deeper the memories chained to my heart leaving blood and scars that hurts when the wind blows .... all alone ..........

Just a lonely boy in a lonely world, would you bring me home ?

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